Composition Practice; Simple Life

I have wanted to live a simple life when I developed the capacity of reasoning. Probably, that is why I always have wanted to be a scholar. I intuitively have thought that it is the best and probably the only way to keep my life simple.

What I have not known is that even the scholar is a profession defined and developed inside the human society. Unless I make my living directly on nature's ground, there is no way I can avoid an intermingled relationships. Residing in the web of relationships and karma is inevitable.

Therefore, to get along with the fate, you should be able to adjust your attitude to unfolding events in front of you. "滄浪之水淸兮 可以濯吾纓 滄浪之水濁兮 可以濯吾足".

Some can do so with or without contemplation, others abhor doing so. The latter may not be heroes as Ayn Rand saw them. They are just born that way. That is just the way they are. There is no supposed way of living as the nature does not judge anything.

So, play on.

Composition Practice; Life as a non-tenure-tracked faculty

I knew that I wanted to be a scholar. I thought that it meant to become a professor, which I am not (yet).

At some point, I realized that what I wanted to be was a scholar and 'professor' was a title usually linked to that profession in modern era. There have been few factors events and decisions that have hindered my career to become a tenure-tracked faculty. I am realizing that being a tenure-track faculty is not as relevant as I thought. Perhaps, the most important fact in my current life is that I am doing what a scholar is supposed to do.

One thing, which I do not appreciate much, is that I need to worry about financial situation. Probably that worry would not go away even with the tenured professor title.

lenient being

Today's Music; March 6, 2014

J. S. Bach Little Six Preludes BWV 933-938

Probably he wrote this for teaching. Nonetheless, they are sparkling gems that brighten up the atmosphere. Whenever I listen to each prelude, I do not want it to end. But they all do. Fortunately, next one begins.
lenient being

Today's Music; Feb 25, 2014

Mozart Divertimento No. 1 in D major, K.136

This is a a fresh music to open your morning happy. Like a pretty and sunny morning of somewhere between May and June. Mozart composed this charm when he was 16 years old. Listening to this music makes me feel like the spring is just around the corner. In reality, we will have a single digit weather tomorrow night. That is what a good music can do.

lenient being

Passion

Do you have a maintained desire to lead a passionate life?

I had it. Then I lost it. I struggle to get it back. Not easy as I think or hope.

One thing I am very sure is that I WANT it back.